"Search me, Oh God, and know my heart; try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful ways in me, lead me in the everlasting way."
There's an old African story. A tribe in the remotest part of Africa had a devastating issue. Their people were dying because their water supply was contaminated. Even health experts were puzzled since the village got its water supply from a fresh mountain stream that was fed from a spring. When the experts sent some divers down to search the spring's opening, they were shocked to see what they discovered. A large mother pig and her baby piglets evidently had drowned and somehow gotten stuck there, contaminating the crystal clear, pure mountain spring water. The divers removed the dead pigs, and the water began to flow clean and pure once again.
Imagine yourself as a crystal clear stream right now. It doesn't matter how polluted the stream may be, or how muddy, or murky the waters may look in your life today. Is there some form of bitterness in your heart today? Maybe there is something that happened last week or this week that has angered you, and you just can't shake it off. But, instead of letting it go, you've been holding onto it hoping to justify it. Look deeper into the last month, last year, and further on. What types of incidents in your life are clogging and poisoning your stream?
If you don't get rid of it today by releasing, you will learn to accept it. By accepting it, you have given it root to block your stream. And then, my friend, you will learn to live with it. You may know people who say, "Well, I'm just an angry person. That's just my personality. I'm always like this. I'm always bitter. This is who I am." Is this you?
Of course it's not. You need to get rid of the poison that is polluting your life. You were made to be a crystal clear stream. God created you in his image. He wants you to be happy, healthy, and whole. God wants you to enjoy life to the fullest. He doesn't want you to live with bitterness and resentment. He doesn't want you polluted and putrefied contaminating everyone else with whom you have influence.
Imagine yourself as a crystal clear stream. If you begin to forgive the people who have offended you, and release all thous hurts and pains, that bitterness will leave and you will begin to see that crystal clear water once again. You'll begin to experience the joy, peace, and freedom God intended you to have. If you don't, just likes those pigs that were trapped, one day that contamination will show up in your life.
This Week's Meditation:
My thoughts are images I have made and not God's.
Meditate on this for several minutes a day. Allow various thoughts to come into your mind. Each time a negative thought comes, imagine that you are walking through the dark clouds of your mind. Allow the clouds to touch you, feel its presence and then move on. Imagine as you go deeper there is a great light in the middle as you past these barriers. Remind yourself of healing each moment.