"I am speaking the truth in Christ. I am not lying; my conscience (enlightened and prompted) by the Holy Spirit bearing witness with me........"
Nobody likes a fake deal. It's ingrained. We don't like fake advertising, phony small-talk, or fake people. In our world there's that great facade game. People put on plastic smiles and tell everyone they are fine while inside their world is crumbling. We are fantastic illusionists.
I believe we do all of this because as Christians we often believe we should feel better than we actually do, or that it is wrong to feel the way we do, so we hide our true feelings from everyone. Sometimes we try to hide these deep feelings from ourselves. We pretend to have faith while we are full of doubt. We pretend be happy while we are simply miserable. We even pretend to be in control and have it all together, but at home, behind closed doors, we are totally different people.
We don't want to admit we are living phony lives, so we stay so busy so we never have to deal with things as they really are. We may even bury ourselves in volunteer or church activities so that God's blessings will "find its way" into our lives. But, actually we are not speaking with God, we are hiding from God hoping we'll gather his love by osmosis. During these times, he is showing us truth, but we'd rather immerse ourselves in work for him rather than really listen to him.
Well, God wants us to be honest and real with him, too. Don't fall into a trap thinking all your feelings are wrong. After all, he did wire us. He knows us. Being a person of faith does not mean you will never have negative or ungodly feelings. We will experience feelings that need to be dealt with, but we can always exercise our faith in God and ask Him to help us not allow our feelings to control us. The Bible says we live by faith and not by sight (2 Cor. 5:7). That means we don't make decisions based on what we see or feel, but according to our faith in God and His promises to us.
This Week's Meditation:
I am under no laws but God's.
I offer up to you the good, bad, and ugly.
I trust you will deliver me from this mess.
Meditate on this for several minutes a day. Allow various thoughts to come into your mind. And realize God has you in his arms always.